i saw a spider on the sidewalk.
beside him lay a dead man.
so i outlined him with white chalk.
"silly man," i said to him,
"that's what happens to you
when you mess with a woman."
i spat in his face
and left his side.
i quickened my pace.
i had to catch my ride.
i arrived to my chariot in due time,
the wind chilling my bones.
carrying everything on my spine.
i was finally alone.
no more voices to be heard. . .
no more demons at my back . . .
i turned to where i had been lured,
and happiness i did not lack.
for the smile that spread
to show my teeth
I am...
Too numb to feel pain,
Too lifeless to bleed.
Id cry myself to sleep at night,
Were my heart not so cold,
My tears would surely freeze.
I thirst...
I thirst not for water,
Nor rum,
Nor blood...
No...
The thing I thirst for has no observable being.
It exists only within the mind,
Only within my mind.
This thing is contact, connection...
With another mind.
Emotion...
Attention...
Something...
From someone...
Anyone...
But this I do not get,
Or rarely get,
From anyone.
It is my hearts most desperate desire,
To feel sincerely loved.
But it is my mind that has created,
This protective shell around my heart;
A sh
i saw a spider on the sidewalk.
beside him lay a dead man.
so i outlined him with white chalk.
"silly man," i said to him,
"that's what happens to you
when you mess with a woman."
i spat in his face
and left his side.
i quickened my pace.
i had to catch my ride.
i arrived to my chariot in due time,
the wind chilling my bones.
carrying everything on my spine.
i was finally alone.
no more voices to be heard. . .
no more demons at my back . . .
i turned to where i had been lured,
and happiness i did not lack.
for the smile that spread
to show my teeth
Current Residence: Earth Favourite genre of music: Indy, Metal, Victorian Industrial, Country, Techno Favourite style of art: Abstract Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: Navi Personal Quote: I can't be what you want me to be, but I can be me.
[23:47] mandakuda: they ran all our names and . . . well hold on i'll copy paste haha
[23:47] mandakuda: we (Myself, Jonas, Alecia, Josh and Blake) were riding down the road after playing pool (Jonas had an Irish Car Bomb and a few beers in the car) and buying a half ounce of heddy nugs
[23:47] mandakuda: We passed on a cop that was at a stop sing on a side street while going to a smoke spot. We had a bowl going. Jonas was taking a hit right before we passed him and had to hold it in till we passed him again.
[23:48] mandakuda: Alecia and Blake got a little paranoid so we turned down a side street. The cop follwed us. We pulled into a dri
This Halloween . . . The fog moving about the field engulfing us as the moon shown brightly in the sky. Fear subsiding for the moment, and then there was completion for those few seconds. Eons in seconds.
I want to be next to you.